It has been brought to my attention a couple of days ago that I'm not having random mood swings. I am depressed. This has never happened to me before, and I kind of saw it coming, but I was in denial. It was with the help of my best friend that made me realize it.
Why? Now, that's a question that I'm still trying to find the answer for. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm lonely. Maybe it's because I'm dying to go back to school. Maybe it's because my life has become routine. Maybe it's all of these combined, plus a little more.
I feel like one of the only people that can make me smile is lightyears away. It's because he is. Who would have thought someone that I met over a year ago and only hung out with once or twice can be all that's on my mind. All the time. I look forward to talking to him every day. He's exactly like me in every single way...
Forget it, I'm not even going to try and blog right now. I'll finish later when my mind isn't completely scattered.
